Hello everyone!
I've been debating for a little while on how to share this, but felt it was time.
Back in October I shared with you our wonderful news, we were having a baby.
Unfortunately, in early December we found out during our detailed ultrasound, at 20 weeks, our little one was not able to survive.
Both of Baby's kidneys were malformed and non functional, Multicystic Dysplastic kidneys. Which means that there was no urine/amniotic fluid production by the baby and the lungs did not/will not develop properly as a result.
It was a devastating turn of events, that resulted in me going in to the hospital just before Christmas (Dec19th) to be induced.
I did however, give birth to a very tiny but still amazingly beautiful baby boy, whom we named John Robert Curry, or J.R.
Being my first child it was both an absolutely amazing and heartbreaking thing.
And as sad as it was, I am grateful for the experience in general.
I will say, the nurses I had throughout my time in hospital were amazing. I work with nurses everyday, but when you are a patient you see a whole other side.
So to keep this post crafty, I am also sharing the mini cards I made for them as a thank you. (I also included some homemade goodies as well!)
There is some significance here, the butterflies.
At our hospital when the unit has a mother in going through something like this, to make staff aware, for privacy etc., they place a butterfly on the door. So I thought I would use one on my card.
Thank you so much for letting me share.
I hope you all had an absolutely fabulous holiday season and wish everyone much joy & happiness for the coming year.
I am so very sorry to read of your loss. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteYour cards are perfect for the occasion and beautiful. How thoughtful of you to reach out to them in your time of grief.
Oh Kasia I am sooo sorry. I can't believe it. A really good friend of mine went through this last year. Found out in the same way and delivered her baby by being induced. It was a very hard time for her. I want you to know that this past summer she had a healthy baby boy. I know you will have a healthy baby. Don't give up hope! I wish I could be there to hug you and help you through your time of grief. Please know that I am thinking of you and your hubby and praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI love your cards, it's so wonderful of you to make this for them to thank them.
I am so sorry Kasia. What a heartbreaking turn of events. These cards are lovely and I am sure very appreciated by the staff.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you my dear. You both will be in my thoughts and prayers.
oh no. My heart goes out to you and your hubby. How special that you reached out to the nurses with beautiful cards and homemade goodies. I'm sure it meant so much to them. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss, Kasia. You are brave to share this and I hope that in time when you are healed that you can try again. The thank you cards you made for the nurses are really beautiful.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss and I know what you are going through. You are very strong to talk about it. Your cards are beautiful and stay strong dearie. Much love and I will be praying for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteKasia, what a heartbreaking experience. You are one strong woman. Please know that many thoughts and prayers are not directed your way. Your cards are beautiful and have so much meaning behind them. I know the nurses will be touched.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss Kasia. I think you're amazing for sharing this, it can't be easy. Your cards are beautiful and I'm sure they will be very much appreciated. You're in my thoughts... xx
ReplyDeleteI am sorry for your loss, Kasia. But you are very strong. Your cards are beautiful and will be appreiciated. Take care.
ReplyDeleteAh, Kasia, this is so heartbreaking. Be well, and thanks for sharing these sweet cards you made for your nurses.
ReplyDeleteDear Kasia,
ReplyDeleteI too am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. Big hugs!!!
I am so sorry to hear your heartbreaking story. I send my love and prayers to you and your husband.
ReplyDeleteOh, Kasia, I'm so sorry to hear your heartbreaking news. I'm so inspired by your strength and by how you have taken time to make this beautiful cards for the nurse despite all you've been through. You're a beautiful soul.
ReplyDeletePositive thoughts and prayers are sent you way, Kasia. I can't even imagine… how amazingly thoughtful of you to make such beautiful cards to show your appreciation! I'm sure they'll be treasured.
ReplyDeleteI'm very, very sorry for your loss, Kasia. It's not easy to share such a devastating experience like you've done, I'm admired by your strenght and wish you all the best for this new year. Sending a big hug from Spain.
ReplyDeleteOh honey, I am so very sorry.
ReplyDeleteso sorry about your loss! there are no words.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. Your cards are beautiful. Love the symbolism.
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful way to express thanks to individuals that helped you through a difficult experience. I'm sorry that you had to go through that.
ReplyDeleteDear Kasia, I'm so very sorry to hear this - what sad news. I hope you and your hubby continue to draw strength and perhaps soon in the future you'll be blessed with another baby.
ReplyDeleteHow thoughtful of you to make cards for the nurses too.
thinking of you, Rx
My sympathies for your profound loss.
ReplyDeleteKasia, you are such a strong and brave lady to share this news with us so soon. I know how it feels to experience losing your first baby and utter shock is up there with sadness and disbelief.
ReplyDeleteWe had a daughter who was stillborn at 39 weeks, we called her Heather Jane and she would have been 19 this year. It is an experience you will overcome together and precious baby John will always be your special first baby... I hope you have the courage to try again in the future when you feel ready.
The nurses will be touched by your wonderful cards.
Hugs
Jenny x
Hugs
I am so so sorry to hear this. Kasia this is such a tragic and sad period you are going through. Carrying your child and expecting....and life turns out completely different. The contradiction of giving birht is also a goodbye and I am impressed by your courage and attitude, It doesn't take away the pain but I hope you find some comfort in the comments. I really don't know what to say. I am not a native speaker but i hope you know what I mean. Your cards are lovely; they will cherish them.
ReplyDeleteTake the time you needed; I am thinking of you.....A big hug and lots of love,
Stella
XXX
You are amazing Kasia! These cards are going to touch the hearts of the nurses, what a special person you are to think of them when you are grieving yourself!
ReplyDeleteKasia, I am incredibly sorry to learn about your loss. Sending you hugs and heartfelt sympathy, my friend.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your little ANGEL!!! Sending you lots of prayers and happy thougts!!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful cards!
Praying for you during this difficult time. I know the nurses will cherish your thoughtfulness.
ReplyDeleteOh, Kasia, I deeply feel for you... and don't want to say anything wrong. My thoughts and prayers are with you!
ReplyDeleteKasia, I'm so sad to hear your news -- my thoughts go out to you and your husband.
ReplyDeleteThe cards you've made for the nurses are so lovely and meaningful. That you can be so thoughtful in the midst of your trials shows just how strong you are.
My best to you -- thank you for sharing.
Kasia, reading your post tore me up! I can't even imagine writing a post like that. You are so strong and there are times I know you may not feel so, but your courage is inspiring! I honestly don't know that I could be crafty during a time like that let along in such a wonderful thoughtful tender way!
ReplyDeleteSending loving and supportive thoughts to you and your husband!
Kasia I have been thinking about you a lot! Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you! Thank you so much for sharing your story! Hugs to you girl!
ReplyDeleteKasia, I am so sorry to hear that you have had to experience this. I know from personal experience how difficult losing a pregnancy/child can be. I pray that your healing will come quickly. You are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteOh Kasia!! I am so sorry! I just read your post and my heart is broken for you! Thank you for being brave enough to share your story and for allowing us to rally around you! My prayers for comfort are with you!
ReplyDeleteKasia, I am SO very sorry about JR. I cannot imagine the pain yu're feeling, but I will pray for you and your husband. Your cards are beautiful and I love how you tied in the butterflies and their significance in your card.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about your loss Kasia. My brother and his wife lost their first baby 2 years ago and it was heartbreaking for everyone- I can only imagine how they felt. I'll keep you and your husband in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteHi Kasia! I am not sure what planet I have been on that did not see this post earlier!! I am so sorry to hear your news about baby J.R. ....
ReplyDeleteI will reinforce what everyone else has said.... wishing you two comfort in this difficult time and to let you know that you are so brave to share. Your cards for the nurses were super sweet! Mat nurses are really a special breed! They were very good to me when I had miscarriages and equally when delivering my little ones. I didn't relise you were a nurse {I am too! Although not working in it at the moment!}
Wishing you only good things in 2012!
Take care of yourselves...
Robin
You have been in my thoughts and prayers, Kasia. Much love to you. <3
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry Kasia.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, Kasia. I am so sorry to hear about your loss! You are an amazing person to be so strong through this. I'm thinking about you, your husband, and little J.R. *hugs*
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